My grandmother is dying. I call her ma. My mother gave her rights over to her when i was 15 and my sister 10. She practically raised us through the hardest years of our life, but she did it. Even though everyone told gher she was crazy for taking us in she didn't give a fuck. So we moved in and I was happy. Of course i missed my private school and my friends there but it wasn't hard to make new ones.
I really loved my grandmother. she did everything for me and now she has to go.
I'm thinking don't be selfish Desiree, let her know its OK to go. when you look at her face you can see shes tired. but for what? for fucking what? She lives her life. Has a Family. Has friends. Has children, and then in the blink of an eye she has to go? I just cant believe that's fair! Its just not fair ma, i love you.
Desiree I really love your writing a blog about your struggles. Humor is a healer. I have a link I'd like for you to look at. This is a half hour long so please watch it when you have the time. Then get back to me:)) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eNjcaQmfjUI BLESSED BROKEN AND GIVEN AWAY
ReplyDeleteHi Dez, I am truly sorry for what you are going thru! And Yes, life is unfair...But really is how you see it. Nothing will ever change your pain and fear of letting your grammy go, and most certainly noone will ever replace her! However, honey, you should know that if and when she goes, she WILL be in Peace, In Love, In Serenity, In Worry-Free, Pain-Free, and all those positive feelings that, as adults, we seem to forget thru everyday struggles; But it's just her capsule that is leaving; Is only her vessel, persay; Her spirit, her teachings, her love, her triumphs of all those battles she fought while being here, will all and always stay with you and around you. You will see her everywhere you turn, you will hear her every so often. Pay attention and you will see I'm not Sh....g you! I Love you as you know! Let me know if there is anything I can do to help you thru this! I send you my best and all my prayers for you, your grammy and all your family, With Sincerity and Lots of Love.
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